Wednesday, 9th November 2016
3611 words today. Today and today and today. The day that never ends. I had a November 9th in Sydney, one in New Zealand, and another one entirely in San Francisco. This is my own personal Groundhogs Day and I would never have chosen it to be this day.
3611 words is only what I wrote on the ipad. I also bought a copy of “Harry Potter and the Cursed Child” and spent the first 30 pages reading it and writing everything on top of it. Like a palimpsest. I lay down all of my fears, my anxieties, my questions, my associations, my heart. I lay my heart down on someone else’s words. And because it is Harry Potter, I’m confident it will hold up under the weight of my grief and distress.
I needed a book to read, pages to hold, another narrative to read in my head. But the more I read of this narrative, the more I want to lay my experience down on top of it. Take your More pictures later. I don’t know that it has to do with the Work Book. But I do know that it has everything to do with me trying to work out my purpose in the world. And how I can best serve others, and how I can bring light. And how I can bring fire. And how to best keep us all warm.
Warm your hearts tonight, my friends. I’m going to drown some sorrows.